i' ve decided to keep quite.
i shant say much about my feelings.
maybe it is because i have forgotten how should i remember those feelings and thought.

messed up my life totally.
today had a little qurrel with dear.
i know he is trying hard to make me happy.
i know he is trying his best to understand me.
i know he is controlling his anger.
yes my attitude towards him is like wtf like that.
too much thing happening recently.
2weeks awat from end year exam. another year to go till O's
the fact that i cant get out on saturday make my mood go from bad to worse.
if i had " cut-off " my emotions on hoping, i wont be so troubled now.
hope. im losing hope as seconds passes. eventually i will not know what is hope.
always, everything i hope will never come true.
everything i wish for.
i can never get them.
perhaps i can get wadever thing i wan.
but there is something that i cant get.
no matter how much i hope for it.
it will never come true.

sec3 life is lik hell like tat. wad will happen to sec 4?
getting stresser as days goes.
and sadly
nobody understands.

-xy-
xy loves him