all i did was just for their attention.
i finally understood how i become like that.

k. rather sick of being a girl.
what thing need gentle, what erm lady like, whatever hell.
totally disgusted.
no matter how much i wanna become the person i wanted to be.
it never happened and will never happen.
no matter how hard i try, its still the same old me.

today xl, natalie, me and lilin tried modelling, of course on our own.
photographer: lilin.
well, i thought i wont be affected by nonsence again
but in the end jus lose control lor! sad lar!
not even end, just the begining i start emo-ing again.
skip skip

dont wish to talk much.
i'll carry on. i'll be strong.this is the only way to be not treated transparent-ly by others.

k, i think my spelling sibeh many prob now!

-xy-
xy miss him