+-life goes on-+

life just have to go on...
i duno wad i gona do...
duno y whenever i c my mother let me think of wad happen ytd
i wanted to told her about the hmt de
n audrey told me tat my maths top 20 in express or wad de..
duno true or nt..
n wanted to tell her about the history de..
but then when i c her...
i dun feel lik telling liaoz
c her only cry....
make me think of wa dhappen ytd
anyway she jus wun understand
even if i tell her only get scolding n more pressure liaoz

i told natalie nt to tell her mum about the hmt...
but she told..
then end up getting scold..
then her mother say if her brother in express class sure can de...
but then his brother in na last in classs?

nice lo...
my mum ask me wad i have for tmr
i say hmt test..
then she ask me wad is hmt3
then i tell her i tell she oso wun noe
she didn even praise me..
end up getting scold oso
scold for nt telling her..
i didn want to tell her at first..
but she wan noe i tell..
din praise me nvm...end up getting scold?
so idiot lo
nvr even encourage me..
she only noe ask me study..
study her head la..
dun even noe wad to study...
i told myself tat if i dun feel anythin
i wun bother wad she say...
maybe tats the best way to let me feel more happy?
without feeling?
wads happy?will i feel it?
i feel tat now i start to kip things to myself again..
then after tat...
nobody will noe about me..
will it be good?
nobdy care for me..
nobody noe me..
how will it be lik?

-xy-
i love him
i wonder.....