+-life make no sence-+

wah..
tdy my tears lik tap water lik tat..wun stop leh..
the more i cry the more " fan" i get..
my mum asked me y i cry..
i didn reply her
jus kept crying..

she say tat natalie wad wad wad
then say friendship is worthless
i told her nt to say my frens liaoz
she like deaf?
or jus wun listen
somemore tell me yes!she wan continue to say
LOLs
if i gona talk her back sure sent her to hospital de
hospital quite near my hse oso..
then kip say n say
then say ying yan eveyday constantly study..
sure got improve
y i dun learn from good students who always study..
learn from natalie those bad things...
lols..
wads wrong hanging out with her..
i can choose my own frens
now after school wher i wan go she oso wan noe..
lols..

i told her she wun understand
she dun believe
kip force me say...
i said nth n kept crying...
even if i told her tat she too strict on me
will she listen?
even if i told her hw i feel will she understand?
say me nth to do can go wash all the clothes...
i swear i tear it all..
even i tell her i rly veri stress will she care for me?
jus say i nid more practise..
or more tuition or wadever so..
no matter how much i say..
ther is no use..
im tired of tis kind of life

tdy teacher ask a few selected students to go to the history outing..
students which their history mid year exam had better result..
i dun feel lik telling them
even if i told them will ther feel happy?
wadever i do is worthless
it had been so long
so long since i heard your compliment...
do u noe how painful it is for parents to kip scolding?
i dun wan
I DUN WAN TO LISTEN ANYMORE!
I'M TIRED
N THEY JUS WUN UNDERSTAND
until now..
wad they say are still about study..
i rly speechless...
their daughter now lik duno how still tell me study n ask me cm bak tmr...
im tired..rly..
feel lik crying at a corner...
without anybody bothering...
without anythin..
without....

i didn tell him much..he has his own worries too..
hope tat u wun c my blog tdy...
dar cheer up kays?
dun worry so much le..
wad must come will cm de...
but then wad i can do is jus say..
nth tat i can rly do to cheer u up...

the day i die...dun cry for me...
i rather be emotionless...
no pain..
no tears..
no laughter...
no everythin

i am nt tat simple girl which u noe last time...
i had changed...

-xy-
i love him
but i cnt do anythin