totally lost control of myself today.
well. accidently let emotions took over me ok. for an instant i really do not know what i doing.
well. during amaths.teacher return us. natalie 22/25, ee voon 25/25, me 21/25
a little buey song but its not the way to treat friends i told myself. fine.
then we 3 at amaths class play play. then she ran infnt. thanks to me of course.
me and natalie then doodle on her test paper.

then goeg lesson.
well EE VOON GT 25/25 OK. seemingly unable to accept the fact ok. i got 22/25. but geog is my best subject.
then, i snatched her paper lor. at st is play play. doodling her paper did not came across my mind ok.
but then....
its just a very short moment, losing control.
i din knew what i was doing ok.
i doodled her paper again. then pass it back to her.
jia hui saw and asked me something(sounded very not friendly of course, but i dun blame her. she dun understand)
i replied: none of your business
then i realised that the seriousness of it ok. i din not mean it.
just simply went out of control.

but i know that losing control is just an excuss. if u murder a person jsut because u lose control but the fact is still that u murdered the person k.

then. just before we went down to canteen.
well. i said something that my dear lilin dun like.
then BOMB.
left the classroom after saying ya lar ya lar. all my fault.
took my comb and went out to the toilet.
i looked at the mirror wondering what's into me today.
what am i really angry about.
i dont know.
after a few minutes i made my way back to class.
saw meirong they all cheering her up or smt.
meirong come ask me not to angry. ( the fact is im not)
decided to give her ahug to cheer her up. then everything returned to nromal. 15minutes of quarreling.
sorry meirong and yy. killed your lunch time.

simply do not understand what happened to me.
in a week i lose controlled twice. wtf.

-xy-
xy loves him